I figured it would end up biting me in the royal butt. I knew it would happen but I didn't know how soon. Peter found out about Phillip and I kissing. The entire group knows. He was quite perturbed and I think I may have messed my chances up with him because of it. At the same time I don't think it matters. He knows how much I regret. He sat and listened to Josh and I discuss and me genuinely regretting the entire thing. It bothered him and I could tell.I also learned that him and Elaine kissed. Squig think he is using her, but me- I have no clue. I can tell there is something going on between the two of us. The way he looks at me sometimes I guess. I can't help but enjoy every second of it. I see so much greatness in his eyes. There is so much to that subject I could go on for hours...

Squig, Josh, and Peter ate dinner at my house last night. Mom cooked mashed potatos, black eyed peas, fried chicken, and stewed okra. I was so glad that she did. It allowded them to see me in a better light and have a better perspective as to who I am. After dinner we set around and talked with my mom. This was really the first time they have spent time in my house and with my mom. I was so greatful.

Today was a really good day. I got my license and had a great day at work. I spent time with Cat which was definately needed. I enjoy her so much. It just makes me realise how much I love her. Squig and Peter went with me to my moms work and then to the school board. I loved seeing them in front of my mom's co-workers. She works with 2 black ladies. They are so great! I loved seeing how they both reacted and wathcing their comments. I see so much life in those 2 boys and I am so thankful to have them in my life.

Life is good. My gas is low. My heart is full.

kat