Tonight I hung out with Kay and inevitably Sara came up. She basically told me there was no use in trying to be her friend. That Sara had changed to much and things were too different. I was quite suprised to hear all of this coming from her. Maybe I should listen. I can't help but to feel if I give up that I am simply walking away. Then again I guess I should pay attention to what I am walking away from. Sara.

Peter, Squig, Josh, and I have each talked a little about what's going on. I had to call each of them and we all agreed to talk at another point in time. When I called Squig of course he was at Sara's best friends house. So she gets on the phone.

"Who is this?"

"Jessica- what is this I hear about you trying to start stuff over us," she is trying to start a fight.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I look down at my phone and it looks like she hung up on me.

Paul gets on the phone he is angry with me and angry at the situation. I can tell he is holding back alot and just trying to figure some things out. I told him I couldn't really explain seeing where he was but we would talk later.

Squig tryed to start stuff after I explained to him why I wouldn't call those two girls hot. Then he turned it around and tryed to make it seem like I was calling them ugly. I love how he does that.

And I saw Gabe today. Which reminded me why I like him. He is like a big teddy bear. He cracks me up. I was sitting next to him on his couch and he turns my head so that I'm looking at him and starts giving me silly pecks on my face. I like it when we act like a couple.

But at the same time he wants me to keep my options open because he doesn't want a relationship and I know he keeps his open. Which is ok. Because I am interested in this kid named Jeremy at work. I think he may have a girlfriend but thats ok. I'm still interested in Gabe.

kat