So I'm not in some weird kind of relationship with Josh. How do I feel about it? I have no clue. Sometimes I am so excited about it and love every second we are together. Sometimes I just sit there and worry about the whole situation. I miss Evan. I feel absolutely horrible about what has gone down between the two of us. Josh is such a good guy. We agree on so much. And we really are cute together. I love being around him. I love how comfortable we are and I love his family. At the same time I don't know what I'm thinking or what I have done to screw up so much between the two of us. I feel really distant from him at times. Like now.

kat