And I honestly couldn't tell you where I disappeared to. I even disappeared from my self. My soul has hurt alot lately. There has been a big gaping whole. It's not for any reason. Although me and Jeremy broke up and dad and I have been a huge fight. I cryed the entire weekend. It hurts inside. I feel weak all the time and I just want things to be ok. I tryed so hard. I tryed so hard to be everything I wanted to be, everything everyone wanted me to be. Everything atleast to be balanced. And the balances doesn't work. And I stop caring and then I start to hurt. And I can't stand to hurt. And then I start to question. And I can't stand questioning. Because questions never end and they come at you for hours at a time. And where are you left. No where. Every where. Confused. Exhausted and crying on the floor. And I don't where that is. So I think I disappeared. And it hurts to tell people. So I don't. Becuase people shouldn't know the strong one cries. But I have a secret... she does.