Christmas update: I'm an idiot.

Yes an idiot. I (insert my first name here)(my middle name here) (my last name here) am an idiot.

Monday Tyler #1 came to my city. He drove an hour and a 1/2 to put his car in the shop to spend a few hours with me. And he did. And he is goregeous as I've ever remembered him. Gorgeous. Heart and all. We played. We wrestled. We kissed. A year and a 1/2 later after the last. And I miss him. But at the same time I don't. That kiss answered some questions for me. I'm not in love with a dream. I use to be in love with a boy who still has feelings for me. And have I talked to him since. No. And when will I talk to him again. I don't know. I do know he'll be in Colorado until the 4th.

Wedensday I bought a dog. A puppy. A rat terrier I had to drive 45 minutes away (1/2 way to where Tyler lives) to get. And he is adorable. Absolutely adorable. He's a Christmas present to dad. Who rejected him.

So now I have a puppy. I cryed just a few tears tonight and that's all. Maybe next year will be none. But a boy is suppose to call me tonight.. A boy that took me to a movie and gave me a Christmas kiss.

And all is good.

kat