And it happened. And I knew it would. It was my turn. Emily had her car hit, Kristen had her car totalled, and Jennifer's front windshield was shattered. So of course my time had to come. And it did.

Tonight I was driving following a friend of mine that I worked with. All I heard was shreeking I focused on the cars that were seemingly coming closer. But it was me coming closer. I smashed into the back of her white hondad accord, pushing her into the back of another car.

Right after I hit her. I didn't know if I had. I had felt it. I had heard it. My head jerked back. My foot was smashed into the floor on the break. My car was wheezing and I was scared.

What am I suppose to go. I was shaking. I put my car in park. I turned it off. And the clicked the light off. I got out of my car and ran to Ashley's, "Are you ok?" She responded, "I've got smoothie all over me."

Andrea got out of the passenger side we all knodded that we were ok. Then I realised there was another car. The lady seemed half way concerned and half way not invovled.

She jumped out and asked how we were. "Honey you're shaking.. do you need to sit down? Are you going to be ok?"

My hands were shaking so much it looked almost intentional but the tears in my eyes proved otherwise. After I assured her I was ok she told us she had already called her husband who she couldn't get in touch with. She was now more concerned with getting her daughter to the concert we were also headed too. We told her to leave and if there was anything she needed we would contact her. She eagerly knodded taking a quick glance at the little scratch the annoited the back of her bumper. I looked up at Clifford. He looked like he had smashed into a tree. There was radiator fluid streaming out and he was smoking pretty good. The rest of the details kind of blur.

The officer who came was so nice and thoughtful. He called me honey and assured me everything would be ok. He drove me home and filled out the report and this and that. He didn't ticket me, "How could I ticket an angel?" he told my mom.

None the less I am incredibly scared and mortified. I don't really know what to do. Or when to do it. Or what happens next. And I have to tell my dad. And I am just so scared. And this all just happened less than an hour ago.

God help me.

kat