I hate Josh. I hate him because he wants a relationship with me that isn't a relationship at all. He wants me to hook up with other guys and him to hook up with other girls. And when he is in town to date each other and not see anyone else. So I thought I'd try it. Friday night I hooked up with another guy. The whole time I felt like trash and I still think I do. And I just want to shake him and yell at him and tell him I can't do it anymore.

Is it even worth it?

Tyler is coming to see me soon. A year and a 1/2 later. Why am I still in love with him?

kat