I didn't break down and call him, and he didn't call me either. But we did talk online. Briefly, long enough for us to establish that I will be in his city while he is in mine (except for Saturday I get back and he leaves to go home on Sunday). And long enough for him to tell me he missed me. And for some reason I didn't tell him I missed him back. Even though I did and I do still. He promised we would do soemthing while he was here and I'm looking forward to it but at the same time I realise how things are and how they have to be. Josh is great and I miss him so much but he cannot give me what I want. And so I must move on. And I will. But Saturday will be a good day. I miss my Josh.

kat