Life has a funny way of smothering you with regret. For these last couple of days I've been suffocated with it. I've breathed it and lived it.

I've cryed and mourned and realized I haven't truly accepted my friends death yet. I don't think you can ever truly accept that. I learned that my puppy died during finals and my mom had prolonged telling me until yesterday night. And for that I cryed some more.

This regret that has covered and coated me for the last couple of days has made me sluggish and lethargic. I've not been my happy self. I've not been as determined and strong willed. My hinges have sort of coated with molasses and I just wonder what it's worth?

There have been so many oppurtunties to me. So many open books that have seemed so enchanting. But now they all seem closed. And I just can't help but soak up all this regret.

kat